I'm so close guys...

So.. I am happy to say that I graduate May 25th... which is..  NOT THAT FAR AWAYY! I am literally so excited.. but yet I am also kinda sad.. I know these next few weeks are going to fly.by.. being that we have Spring break.. Senior skip day.. Senior camp out day.. UGH I can't believe all my hard work is finally paying off... 12 long years finally well almost over with.. & then .. It's off to college for me for the next four years ! :) I actually just got my stuff for graduation day Friday so of course I was super emotional! lol.


Then after graduation is SENIOR WEEK! Which will be fun.. Right now I'm just worried about getting through the third quarter of school.. Always the hardest & the quarter that takes forever to pass by... So many tests, projects, quizzes due... 

When is you guys graduation date that is.. if you're a senior?

What's something you will miss about high school! COMMENT BELOW!

Yuck.. love. Boys have cooties... Did we forget that ladies?

So.. Valentines Day is about three days away & I couldn't be more thrilled!!

Did you catch on to my sarcasm there? lol..

Valentines Day is really nothing special for me.. in fact I will be spending it at home watching Gossip Girl & maybe cleaning my house. I've never really been a big fan of you know the HUGE teddy bears & all the roses & chocolate. My thing is.. You really want to show me you appreciate me? Let's just hang out .. have a movie night.. eat junk food.. & talk about random stuff all night. You don't have to spend wads of money to show a girl you care.. It's the simple things that mean the most. Unfortunately, like I said I'm spending Valentines Day with no one.. just like it's been the past.. oh I don't know 17 years? haha. There's really only one guy that comes to mind.. but you know things don't always work as planned & you don't always get what you want. All that matters is he's happy! Right? :)

So to all you .. lovey dovey teenagers & couples in general out there.. I hope you all have a GREAT Valentines Day! Show your significant other how much they mean to you! Don't let the opportunity pass to tell them how much they mean to you because time is so priceless.. 

But really though.. boys have cooties.

Ew.

To the guy who will NEVER see this..

I've honestly never been able to tell you how I feel so here I am.. You want me to be honest? Well I have to be honest with you about everything not just a couple of things..

I wouldn't say that I liked you because.. it's not "liked" . It's like. or is it? I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL.. I could tell you I don't like you until I'm blue in the face but when I see that you like someone else or talk about someone else.. I get so.. jealous & I shouldn't because.. I'm the one who pushed you away. Lol.. I don't get it. Please just explain to me why I have to feel this way.. or why I had to have feelings toward you. I don't want to feel this way.. at all. I don't want to constantly worry or wonder what could have happened. I don't want to know that every time I talk to you or see you at a game that you're with someone who makes you so happy & I.. 

well I am just a friend there for support.. to talk with times get tough..

I want you to be honest with me.. how do you feel..?

If today was your last day to talk to me.. forever.. you'd never get to speak to me again what exactly would you say...?

Be honest with me.. 

That's all.. 

If you're reading this right now.. then you obviously know how I feel.. but I've yet to get the slightest clue as to what you're thinking.. things are so up and down it's hard to tell . 

Trust me I've tried so hard to just drop it and move on.. & you know what.. the second I really thought I was moving on from liking you last year.. You somehow popped right back into my life. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad your here.. but it's just.. 

Do I want to get hurt again?

That's the real question.

So Not Cool Saturday...

BACK TO OLD TRADITIONS!

So.. I haven't posted one of these posts in a LONG time .. You know.. It goes like this.. I tell an embarrassing story and you all laugh at me right? Lol that's okay though.. I enjoy making others laugh... just as long as you're laughing with me and not at me!:) So.. Let me think.

OH! Okay.. I've got a pretty embarrassing memory to share.. I think it was freshman year when this happened.. So, let me just start off by saying I LOVE going to plays. I find drama & acting to be super fascinating and cool. I know I know.. Complete nerd but anyways! That's besides the point.. So I had decided to go to the Grease play with my best friend & we decided to sit on the very top row.. well, there was SO many people there & obviously the show was great! Well.. before an intermission was called me and my friend decided we wanted to get up and I assume get some food before the crowd let out for intermission.. well there was no way for us to get out because again there was so many people so we decided to step up over the seats. Well, my friend did it in such a calm and orderly manor .. Well I was like hey! I can do that.. I go to step over the chair and my leg falls in between the seat. Also, let it be known that it became super quiet when I fell .. Every one around started to look around and it was just.. so embarrassing.. also it was the fact that my leg was STUCK & I started to panic which.. we all know worrying makes things ten times worse. But.. thankfully I ended up laughing it off... shrugging it off and of course getting my leg unstuck! XD So.. that night wasn't to terribly bad!!

Bahamas Vacation: Free Port & Nassau 2016

Hey guys! It's taken me forever to finally getting around to upload these pictures but since I've had some free time I thought .. What better time to upload pictures and write a post then now?! SO.. here I am!! I'm surprised I'm actually taking a break from watching Gossip Girl. I have surprisingly become obsessed with the series! Well.. my trip to the Bahamas was amazing! I wish I was still there but unfortunately we all have to come home at some point right? lol can't stay hidden away in paradise forever right? Well .. hope you enjoy the pictures I captured while cruising!!

Just the typical ranting post. lol

I've come to the conclusion that .. some things are just not meant to work out.. I've spent my whole life trying to please people and make sure they're okay but you know what.. I haven't even stopped a single second to make sure I was okay. It's like I've been running an endless amount of miles fixing or helping to mend patches in peoples lives that aren't necessarily the best but I haven't stopped to catch my breath. & to be honest I've gotten to the point where.. I can't keep running anymore. I can't help others and give others advice when I can't even take my own advice.. A lot of stuff has been on my mind the past couple of days.. I started back talking to an old friend of mine.. well for the second time! Just as friends though.. ! Well way back when I had the biggest crush on this person.. but I don't know .. thing's changed. & I feel so stupid because.. I'm the type of girl that doesn't admit how she feels .. I've always done that & I don't know why.. I like someone but I have a chance with them I always second guess myself and tell the person I don't like them.. but yet when I see they have moved on & are happy I get super jealous..I mean.. does that mean I still have feelings toward that person?

SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME SOME ADVICE. lol 

I'm tired of turning people away .. 

On a more positive note though.. I am headed toward the Bahamas in TWO DAYS! Lot's of pictures to come! Super excited to be taking my third cruise! It's truly a memory I will never forget! Oh! & won't forget all the amazing food either <3 lol.. how has everyone been? Any good New Years Resolutions...? Let me hear em!

Comment below!

Leave me some ideas for post's?

Sometimes .. It just never seems that I will meet prince charming.. the one who is suppose to sweep me off my feet and take my breath away.. Every guy I seem to run into isn't serious nor do they want something real.. but we're still in high school and I guess that's the perks of being in high school still right? Immaturity and drama galore.. I've been so busy and stressed with school that I haven't had the chance to catch you guys up on what's been going on! I am currently on Christmas break and about half way through my senior year of high school! It's so crazy to think that it is almost January! Any other school year and time would've passed by extremely sloooooow. Each and every day I get more and more excited thinking about college but at the same time I am also sad. I've always been told to cherish the memories in high school because one- you can't get them back, and two-you're going to look back someday and wish you could go back to such a simpler time. I'm scared to see what my future holds for me.. Wouldn't it be amazing if we could somehow fast forward to see if things turn out good for us.. Like do we finish college.. find a job.. have a family.. and most importantly see if we are happy... I do agree that would be so super duper cool but God is in control and I know that His plan for me is far greater than anything I could EVER imagine so I will let things take it's course and let God lead me down whatever path He may be pulling me toward! I know that my journey these next couple of months/years will be rocky but I am totally up for the challenge! I'm wanting to blog more.. I know I know.. I say this every time but I'm serious..! I just need some tips or ideas for my blog..Maybe some posts you would like to see being put up!

Leave me some ideas below! 

Lately I've been feeling bleh...

You know those days when you just feel bleh..? Yea that's totally me right now. Boys have got me all twisted in my feelings. Friends have me wondering if I even have any friends.. It's just a mess to say the least! At least I have God and my family though! Oh and 93.3 on the radio <3 I think I've become somewhat obsessed with this radio station. I don't know.. Oh a plus to this weekend is that it's actually been pretty.. GREAT! I've been pretty busy! Friday I went to a few haunted houses and let me just say they were AMAZINGG! Only down side was that... It was FREEZING.. from the time I stepped out of the car until the time I got back into the car I was shivering lol. We went to two places they both were equally good! Was very impressed with them both! & of course afterwards we had to stop by waffle house and eat something I mean come on.. what better thing to do at three in the morning! lol.. Yesterday I went to the movies to see the new Goosebumps movie.. It was so so good! I highly recommend that you go see it if you haven't already! Don't say no because you're a teen or anything like that because I'm currently seventeen and I LOVED it ! :) Now I'm just chilling and relaxing on this peaceful Sunday! Because.. Sadly, it's back to school tomorrow! I already have senior fever and it's not even the first of the year.. Still can't process the thought of me graduating in a few short months.. These couple of months are going to FLY BY!

Is this real life..

guys... today I went outside to check the mail box for like the 500th time these past two weeks & I finally got my acceptance letter! I'm going to college! & to make it even better it's the college I've dreamed of going to. Every time I would ride past it i'd be just so amazed at how beautiful the campus was! Now.. next fall I will get to call it my home away from home! I literally was crying today.. No. Joke.

I think it's so amazing how God works.. He blessed me with this opportunity...

He just works in amazing mysterious ways!

Every where I went after that today I blared my Christian playlist from the internet and basically just jammed out !

I literally felt so emotional today knowing that things are finally sinking in and setting into place..

A huge hardship has been lifted off my shoulders.. I don't have to worry about what i'm going to do after highschool or if i'm going to be able to get into college.. I'm so happy and content with the choice I made..

I feel that this University will welcome me with open arms and their love for God is never ending and that make's me love it 10x more! I can't wait to see where this journey takes me !

Senior Year Is Literally RIGHT Around The Corner

So the closer Senior year gets the more and more I want to create a "bucket list" one just specifically for Senior Year! So.. Why not write it here that way I can look back later and remember all the crazy things I wanted to do!


1. CHANGE SOMEONES LIFE.

2. Be a witness to someone

3. Go cliff diving

4. Visit New York

5.Participate in a color run

6.Write a message in a bottle and send it

7. Visit the love lock bridge

8. Fall in love

9. Go on a mission trip

10. WINTER-JAM <3

11. Become friends with someone I normally wouldn't 

12. Make all A's

13. Ride a loop roller-coaster

14. Go to a drive-in movie

15. Go on a road trip

16. Sit on a roof and watch the stars/sunset


Whats some things you have on your bucket-list? Comment below ! :)

Oh no she didnt......

So.. i've been looking for inspiration for new blog topics/ideas.. Well! I found one that said.. "Write about your most embarrasing memory".. Me being the quirky .. nerdy.. individual I am have a lot of moments when i've been embarrassed so why not tell you some of my own.Just as long as you promise not to go back & tell all my friends.. Shhhh.


My most embarrassing memory I have for this latest school year (Junior Year) would be when I came back from Christmas break. You know the routine.. everyone gets new clothes and expensive things soo.. they decide to show em off a bit! Well.. I decided to wear some of my new clothing . BAD IDEA. I was walking into school and as I turned the corner I felt something wet.. So, I looked down to see I was practically standing in a puddle of water where the water fountain had over flown. Well.. I kinda shrugged it off and managed to move out of the water.. well the moment I stepped out of the water I went off the ground and about 3 feet in the air. I slipt. Oh! & did I mention that I had a cup of orange juice in my hand that managed to spill in the process and just go all over the front of my shirt.. I was so embarrassed I started laughing so I wouldn't begin to cry. I mean.. when I hit the floor you could hear a thump. I was soaked beyond belief... With that being said I had to go home and change before school even started.. Did I mention this happened in front of a large group of people.. Ugh only me... lol

Whats the most embarrassing thing thats ever happened to you?! Comment! I'd love to hear your stories.

My life as of now.. well the majority of it ! lol

You know.. I've never been one to complain about being out of school.. but as of right now. I am more than ready for senior year to begin! Friday I get to go in and take my senior yearbook photo.. I am excited yet nervous. Because let's face it.. my smile is.. lets just say.. not the best. That's probably one of my top insecurities. Maybe I will just do one of my funny gestures and stick out my tounge lol. Senior year has lots instore for me.. Student council.. Teacher Cadet.. Yearbook staff.. and not to mention some honors classes I have.. I have to start applying for scholarships.. Actually decided what career I want to pursue.. Visit different colleges.. SOOO.MUCHHH. omg. I'm kinda scared about going to live on campus and being away from my family.. I'm sort of a home body if you couldn't already tell.. Lol... But as of right now things seem to be going good! I actually had a lot of fun today my dad gave my brother a hair cut.. & I got to help! Scary I know... lol but I think he likes it.. and hey! Saves us a couple bucks. Maybe I will cut hair for a living.. lol na. I'd probably make someone bald D: Relationship wise.. I'm still single.. lol just like I was when I created this blog. Umm.. I do like this guy but I feel things wouldn't work out for certain reasons... 

I have a question for you guys..

If you really like someone and you are apart of one religion but they don't necessarily agree.. what do you do? would the relationship work out?

Comment your opinions below! I'd LOVE to hear from you guys!! :)

Class of 2016 babbbyyyyyy

Well.. in about 10 more days I will finally be able to call myself a Senior! All the hardwork has finally paid off & I couldn't be happier.. the never ending 12 years is finally coming to a close.. but i'm not going to waste away my Senior year. You best believe i'm going to make it something I cheerish for a life time! It's crazy to even think that this time next year.. I will be about a week from graduating!!! How crazyyyy... to be honest I don't even know if i'm ready to.. I mean what's it going to feel like packing up my stuff and moving to college.. not being home every night and seeing my family.. I'm afraid that the friends I have made throughout highschool will become a faint memory... I'm so excited to see where God takes me throughout this journey yet at the same time.. Nervous. My senior year I plan to blog a lot more... giving yall the first person insight into my senior year.. I want to capture the memories and hey maybe even share them with you all! I pray to God that I don't wish away my life quickly.. These 12 years have not been easy and more importantly Junior year has not been easy! Such a challenging grade... so much more effort has to be put in and honestly I think I have worked my butt off to be where I am today! Well.. with the help of God, family, and friends toooo of course! :) I hope to look back on this one day and let myself never forget all the good times I shared and to never.. EVER forget the ones who mean the most to me..I'm so excited to see what plans God has instore for me! Whether it be what career I will choose..or even where the wind may take me...! All my life i've wanted to be a nurse.. and who knows! I may very well become a nurse.. but I met someone Junior year that completly impacted my life.. A teacher of mine.. She has taught me the true defintion of an amazing teacher.. She inspires me and so many ways & has truly helped me out ! There was a time during my Junior year.. not to long ago actually where a good friend of mine passed away.. well she helped not only me but our entire class to get back on our feet again.. and I could never thank her enough. I would love to one day inspire someone in the way that she has inspired me.. I would love to be someone that an individual looks up to for guidance.. Who knows.. we will just have to wait a couple years and see where life takes me... ! It's going to be a crazy ride.. but theres no doubt about it .. I'm up for it!