I'm back.. alright let's talk...

HEY GUYS! So.. I know you all are probably wondering where I have been.. considering it's been a couple of months since I last posted. Well, senior year has taken a toll on me! I have so much studying and homework and activities outside of school for school that it is just.. woah. A bit overwhelming! Haha but I wouldn't change it for a thing I love being a busy bee! I thought I would just put up a post not anything to interesting or exciting and let you guys know I'm still here. I know I haven't been as active as I should be but still.. I care a lot about this blog and continue to put it to good use!

So today I wanted to bring up and issue that has been heavily debated worldwide and that's suicidal thoughts/depression. If anything had to upset me or hurt me it would be to see how many teenagers battle such horrible things. I am here to not only make you laugh on this blog but to be a friend if that's the case. If you have ever been depressed/had suicidal thoughts or if you currently are just know that I am here for you. Whether it be two in the morning.. four in the afternoon.. it doesn't matter! I will try to get back to you as soon as possible! I hope that by me writing this you get some insight as to just how precious and valuable your life is. Don't just throw it all away.. God has a purpose for you!! Let Him work wonders.. Let Him take you far in life.. more importantly let Him love.you. I pray for you.. I pray things will get better with time.. I pray that you find the courage and strength to confide in someone and let them be there to help you and support you! Please understand how valuable your life is.. there will never be another you! Never.. and you're so unique, God made you special.. one of a kind.. I know sometimes it may feel like you've hit rock bottom but trust me.. You will make it through! You're strong.. you can turn your life upside down and around.. you can strive to make things better! All it takes its.. a little effort. That's it.. I believe in every single one of you.. that no matter what life throws at you.. you won't let it knock you off your feet. Please don't hesitate to message me if you're going through a tough time! 

I'm so emotional tonight..

I need to start living my life for God. Not for me.. I need to put him first in everything I do. I want to be closer to him. I don't want to just come to him when i'm in need of help but I want to be there to tell him how my day was or something exciting that happened. I've gotten in the habit of not even saying thanks or praying some nights. That seems so selfish of me... As of yesterday I really just thought about it and I want my relationship with God to be my main priority. I'm so tired of feeling like I have no friends or no one I can come to when I have someone who has always been there for me .. Pouring out their unconditional love to me.. Waiting for me to give them a chance.

I haven't been living my life for God. I've been so selfish and worried about me. Worried about what others think.. being caught up in liking guys and getting so hurt and dragged down..

What I need is His light to shine on me because He knows best.. I just have to let him into my life. I can't keep shutting Him out. He welcomes me with open arms and at times I'm just so self-centered that I forget to talk to him or say thanks.

This last year has not been easy.. I've sometimes questioned why God would let things happen.. Why did He have to do it.. Why now.. Why to me..? I just didn't understand it. At all.. I was angry and didn't know what to say or think... But after awhile I realized that I had forgotten something.. That God will NEVER put you through something you can't handle.. It may be tough..but the challenges we face here on earth cannot compare to the glory of Heaven.. The life we live here on earth.. It's temporary so that's why it's important you live for God.

A goal of mine for this year...?

Be a witness to someone..

I want to tell them about the never-ending love God has for them. How much he loves them and cares for them.. How He stands their willingly with open arms.. 

Senior Year Is Literally RIGHT Around The Corner

So the closer Senior year gets the more and more I want to create a "bucket list" one just specifically for Senior Year! So.. Why not write it here that way I can look back later and remember all the crazy things I wanted to do!


1. CHANGE SOMEONES LIFE.

2. Be a witness to someone

3. Go cliff diving

4. Visit New York

5.Participate in a color run

6.Write a message in a bottle and send it

7. Visit the love lock bridge

8. Fall in love

9. Go on a mission trip

10. WINTER-JAM <3

11. Become friends with someone I normally wouldn't 

12. Make all A's

13. Ride a loop roller-coaster

14. Go to a drive-in movie

15. Go on a road trip

16. Sit on a roof and watch the stars/sunset


Whats some things you have on your bucket-list? Comment below ! :)

Class of 2016 babbbyyyyyy

Well.. in about 10 more days I will finally be able to call myself a Senior! All the hardwork has finally paid off & I couldn't be happier.. the never ending 12 years is finally coming to a close.. but i'm not going to waste away my Senior year. You best believe i'm going to make it something I cheerish for a life time! It's crazy to even think that this time next year.. I will be about a week from graduating!!! How crazyyyy... to be honest I don't even know if i'm ready to.. I mean what's it going to feel like packing up my stuff and moving to college.. not being home every night and seeing my family.. I'm afraid that the friends I have made throughout highschool will become a faint memory... I'm so excited to see where God takes me throughout this journey yet at the same time.. Nervous. My senior year I plan to blog a lot more... giving yall the first person insight into my senior year.. I want to capture the memories and hey maybe even share them with you all! I pray to God that I don't wish away my life quickly.. These 12 years have not been easy and more importantly Junior year has not been easy! Such a challenging grade... so much more effort has to be put in and honestly I think I have worked my butt off to be where I am today! Well.. with the help of God, family, and friends toooo of course! :) I hope to look back on this one day and let myself never forget all the good times I shared and to never.. EVER forget the ones who mean the most to me..I'm so excited to see what plans God has instore for me! Whether it be what career I will choose..or even where the wind may take me...! All my life i've wanted to be a nurse.. and who knows! I may very well become a nurse.. but I met someone Junior year that completly impacted my life.. A teacher of mine.. She has taught me the true defintion of an amazing teacher.. She inspires me and so many ways & has truly helped me out ! There was a time during my Junior year.. not to long ago actually where a good friend of mine passed away.. well she helped not only me but our entire class to get back on our feet again.. and I could never thank her enough. I would love to one day inspire someone in the way that she has inspired me.. I would love to be someone that an individual looks up to for guidance.. Who knows.. we will just have to wait a couple years and see where life takes me... ! It's going to be a crazy ride.. but theres no doubt about it .. I'm up for it!

Spring breakin' it! We are truly blessed..

As you guys already know i've been off for quite some time now! Things have been so hectic and crazy that I haven't really had much time at all to blog! I've been busy registering for my SENIOR classes next year! I am so so sooo excited.. but at the same time nervous and scared because that means i'm one step closer to college! So today I just wanted to talk about the true meaning of Easter... what would you say if I asked what is the true meaning of Easter? As a kid I always was so excited to wake up and see if the Easter bunny had come... and I was super excited for the Easter egg hunts! I agree all that is fun but what we should really be thinking about is Jesus! I know I know... I have my opinion and you have yours.. If you don't believe or you're not a christian then.. so be it! I'm here to speak to those who do believe and have a burning love and passion for Christ! Or those who want to be christian but don't know anyone really to talk to.. I'm here to tell you that I am here to talk if you want! As long as you're respectful and nice to me I will do the same in return! Have questions? I may be able to answer them.. If not I can ask someone who might or search around and find something! I don't know everything but I am willing to talk to any of you if needed! Comment below and get in touch with me, I will respond in no time! So.. true meaning of Easter, it all starts with Jesus and the suffering he went through to save our sins, I believe and know for a fact in my heart that Jesus Christ died on the cross for not only me but for you ... and you... and you.. and all of you! This weekend is for sure something.. within the span of three days Jesus died and rose from the dead. When I think about this .. this is what I say... how is it that someone who had never met me in person but only knew of me could risk their lives for me and suffer for me? It shows me just how much Jesus cares for me and loves me! He didn't have to do that... but he did it willingly! There is no greater love than that! If we think about it we are truly blessed... to have someone care so much for us.. Many question how Christians know that the bible is real and that Jesus is real.. and all this. My only answer for them is .. I walk by faith, that even when I cannot see Jesus I know he is there with me and there for me! Again... If any of you would like someone to talk to i'd be more than happy to! I'm not saying you have to! You have your own opinions but just if ya want to!:) God bless..! <3